that's how i am. ill try to make this understandable.

it all kind of started back in 7th grade. i cut myself, was bulimic for awhile. got over it. then got all devastated again when my parents put me in some toooooo terrible for words school, that i hated. now im the number one rated school in my state, and i am truly messed up. sure i have friends, but i joke to make them happy. i let them bust on me, and do nothing about it.

don't get me wrong, my friends are great, and i know they think they're playing. they've apologized so many times. more than i can count for playing jokes. but it hurts. and i sit there and just take it. im a real big pushover, and i don't know how to stop it.

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if i go crazy will you still call me superman?
yah baby, i will

You dont deserve to be hurt. I think it is really good that you are in this better school, i think you have the oppurtunity to turn things around for yourself. But you cant expect to get better by not doing anything. Ive been down the depression road before. You have to make some sort of improvement, do something, or the pain will keep ebbing.

Dont hesitate to talk with me

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"Tell them to look up, tell them to remember the stars." Renee, TWLOHA.com